Showing posts with label lost. Show all posts
Showing posts with label lost. Show all posts

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Goblin Fruit



Goblin Fruit
February 3, 2010
5'' x 8''
Pencil on paper


i)
I loved you because you were sad,
damaged goods, lost and
(ir)retrieveable.
Am I really one of those ♀
who yearns to find and repair old broken souls?
Soothe, stitch it up,
wish,
wish,
wish it was up
to me to make everything right.
Me to make you right.

ii)
In some villages, in some
times, there was some-
one called a sin-eater, struck
dumb by the weight of
sorrow ingested
along with the meals she was offered
to consume the bulk of the departed
one's crimes.

Times
have changed, you say, but still
you pay
me with sweets, sullen meals,
grudging generosity,
to swallow,
and swallow,
and take in your misery.

iii)
I loved your poet's eyes,
musician's hands,
I loved your nineteenth-century soul, so full of
aching empty spaces.
I dreamed you an enchanted lover, tree spirit
of the ancient dark forest, your
bed a nest, your
room a cave.

iv)
Ah, child, but child,
you knew
you've heard the stories,
how those who enter the wood
in autumn, time of turning
too often lose their way
and stray
unknowingly down, under
root, under
ground,
and to once taste the goblin fruit
is to stay.

Ah, child, you slept in his nest, you
ate of his sickly sweets, you
ate of his sickly sins, you
stayed.

Saturday, January 16, 2010

4590 St. Denis

Magical store full of cupboards.
Go back there when next you're
feeling lost,
to lose yourself
in the labyrinthine folds,
wood upon wood
until, reaching the heart,
you stop.

Until reaching the centre,
all doors open into
nothingness
but grain and a greater or lesser coating of dust,
and packets of silicone gel
in forgotten corners.

All doors open into
everything
a broken heart desires:
nooks, irredundent spaces,
and accessory
crannies in which to place your sadness,
a string of red stone beads,
in the back.

Where few will seek is safest.

Until reaching the heart
of this maze,
so much larger within
(Your home, my love, was larger
within until it shrank)
than without,
all paths call onward
in any and no direction,
with ever more interiors to
expose to your wandering eyes.
Your blind fingers guide
you over skins soft as inner bark
laid bare to the voices
of the wood, of the skinned and striated wood.

Until, reaching the centre
(There is no centre;
the centres
travel with us unseen),*
you stop.

At the heart
of the maze is a monster,
not toothsome nor horned,
but simply
dormant,
vacant,
void,
and a perfect fit for your heart.


*Margaret Atwood, 'A Place: Fragments,' in The Circle Game (Toronto: House of Anansi Press, 1966), 75.